On seclusion and bad clients
On seclusion Your retreat to yourself when faced with a mass of people to please may or may not be healthy—I wouldn't know any better than you do. I do know that seclusion serves a purpose, and it's usually to relieve yourself from the folly of the masses. Where everyone else goes blindly, you may only proceed with caution. Where you can feel yourself being drawn into a world—not unknown, but known to be ungood—you should follow the path back to the light. Many things will try to divert your attention from what matters. These things don't fit with a divine vision set out for any human life. These things bring you to death rather than to an ever-expansive island. In these situations, seclude yourself. On the other hand, where you find yourself uncomfortable even in your seclusion: escape. Escape quickly into new things that bring you to change. Swim away from your island onto other islands. You will return one day to your own, but you must experience other places that haven't been trekked by your mental map. Seclusion is not the answer here. To know whether or not it is the right answer, you have to honestly answer to the providence that aims to lead you through life. There is no other way. To recognize that providence—righteousness, I've heard you call it—you must practice and learn. You do not understand currently what that entails and therefore you find it hard to discern when you should retreat and when you should move forward in your actions. Become more attuned to this voice of reason by spending more time around it. Listening to it. Retreating to it, and holding on to it as you go forth into new adventures.
On bad clients What makes this one person so worth your time? Those who aim not to work with you but for you to work for them are not worth your time. The unnecessarily demanding are not clients, they are chores. Recognize this: money comes with a cost. It is very expensive. If your goal in work is simply to convert time into money and money into material wellbeing, then more power to you. Work for any client that comes to your door and accept their money freely—it will lead you to your goals. If your goal in work is to achieve more freedom, however, you won't do yourself a favor by taking their money and becoming indebted to them. You will lose freedom as they hold their money over your head and make you dance around and jump through hoops for them. All because you felt you needed their money. This happens when you value money over your freedom. Take a look at the superstars of this world who lose their entire lives because of it. They want fame—for what? They want money—for what? What are these things when the man who has them doesn't even possess himself? When have time to call his own? All this to say—don't make the mistake of working for negative people when you don't have to.