You are more than a dropout. There is an ethos involved with what you do. A value system underlies your actions and tendencies. Perhaps it’s a drive to be radically different, whatever that means. Maybe it’s a desire to stand out or a grab for attention to do things in ways that nobody else dares to. I can’t say that you’re wrong for many of the things you do, only that you should clear up your motivation to do them. There’s not a right way to find success, but there is a right way to define success. That’s not to say the way you define success will be the same as the next man or woman’s way, but there is a correct definition for you.