Recognize what brings you solace and bring more of that into your life. I’ve seen that your ability to develop relationships, mentor, and learn from others is stronger when you’re not in a group but one-on-one. That is, in essence, your medium. Instead of pushing yourself into another medium and attempting to make peace there, stick to where you know you are strong and become better. You are far less peaceful (though not a disturbance to others, by any means) when you have to be a part of large groups, and that’s okay. Make more of an effort to put yourself in situations where you can love others most effectively. That will bring you peace.